Still Lost In Being Lost
I am about 2.5 yrs out. I Love my wife but there is no trust, no Intimacy, no Longing, no talks or touch. We have been together for 13+ yrs I made the choice to stay mostly because of our children. (4 of them) She wouldn't stay in counseling after 4 months, I'm literally lost. It feels like yesterday. Other than the absolute rage I felt. I'm not sure I will ever feel how it felt before the affair. The triggers are everywhere my mind is still racing not sure I've even slept for more than 4 hours solid in that entire time. I work out like I'm in college again. Trying to exaust myself mostly. I'm in great shape again for 50 but not sure how long I can keep this up.
Anyway I just needed to vent. Any advice thanks.
5 comments posted: Wednesday, May 14th, 2025
